Thought a hundred times to put a facebook status 'missing u dear'.But some force had been pulling my mind backwards.Even my thoughts were slowing down.I wondered if friction could acts inside our minds as well.
I darted through the fb chat list to check if she was online.Yes..she was there.I thought to say a 'hai' but the same friction acted again."Let her give a chance this time to initiate the chat" i scowled.
I had initiated the chat with her for last 4 times.I gazed at her name in the chat list with a hope that she would say a 'hai' soon.
I glanced at the clock to know the time.Oh!! 11:30 only.Last day we chat until 1 a.m.After the last semester i seldom had a chat with girls during night.This girl is presumably different,had spent more time to chat with me.
I opened her facebook profile page to see that awesome picture.In that peach tight top,matching earrings,untied hair and sparkling eyes she looked more cute and alluring.45 likes and 14 comments.Not bad at all.I gazed at the picture for a while.
Suddenly a notification pop up on my wall.When i opened the link it was the same thing.'sachin slashed a 100th ton..I felt like the world have shrunken to the little master for last 6 hours.I remembered someone's fb status update."Is cricket is the only thing to discuss here in fb??" Yeah he was right. Many football matches were going on the whole day and are going to begin as well.But nobody showed any interests in the kick off.Everybody have been running behind this great hero,putting fb status update about his remarkable achievement,sharing his links ,discussions,comments..whatever they could ..they were doing all the time.Even i had participated in many discussions about sachin as well.But the sad news was that indian team failed to came up with a win in the match.So much disappointing.That was too against bangladesh.
Time was moving very slowly without pestering anyone in its same rhythm.12:00 a.m.Now what??i understood that waiting her again was meaningless.Had my chat failed to impress her??It could be a reason for her silence as i know my chat with girls through fb was so far a failure.I could have asked her mobile number last night.Crap!!! I missed an opportunity.
Life would give you a second chance in any of the matters.But when it comes to a girl you will get only one chance and if u fail to kick the ball ..then shut your mouth and dont look back.When a series of reminiscence began to hunt my thoughts i logged off the facebook and sat silent.
I have not thought even in my dreams that this girl from kochi would influence my mind within a week.All of it happened from a friend request that i had given to her as a part of making friendship with girls in fb.Even i was not sure that she would accept my friend request.Life sometimes pull us down sometimes make us happy sometimes give us hope and sometimes it breaks herat!!My heart is not broken..or is it??Is this the situation people came up with the word infatuation??
I opened my eyes hearing a beep sound from my mobile.I took the mobile and was surprised to see a message from an unknown number.." hai sidharth..it is me sairah..sorry that i slept off before my laptop after login to fb.damn ..my work have not finished yet.tomorrow morning i dont think i could submit my sheets."
Instead of the message about her work i have shocked to see how she managed to get my number.The design and submission was not a new thing to great new stuff for me as sairah was not the first architecture girl i have in touch within my life so far.And what was the last line? oh fear about the submission.I had seen my ex-girlfriend being an architecture student had to cut her morning hours so that she could submit her sheets atleast in the afternoon on the deadline.She always submitted her sheets in the afternoon on the submission day.
"It was k sairah..try 2 finish ur wrk as fast as posble and get a gud slp soon" i replied her.
Within seconds i got another message from her."U din sleep yet??time is alrdy 2:30"
"dats k..i hav bn sleepn until i woke up by ur msg."
I understood that she has the habit of chatting through mobile as i got the next fast response from her.
"oh sorry sidharth..i din mnt to irritate u..now u just slp"
"no .its k..u cn text me."
"can u gv me a compny then ..if i keep on drwn alone i wud slept off agn"
I remembered ,she had told me that she have been staying as a paying guest in some with a friend Remya.Sairah remarked that Remya went to home last week as she got severe fever and headache.With a great smile on my face i replied."yes i would like to give u a cmpny."
"thn com on..i login to fb if possible.textn thru mobil is very hard"
I got into fb again.She was there online already.I checked the notifications,opened her caht box and said a 'hai'.
"hai"she replied.
Now i thought to ask her about where she had got my number."wher did u get my numbr??"
"oh i got it from ur batchmat Athul."
Athul??ya i know him.He is my batch mate.But how come sairah know him?"How do u know him??" i asked.
"oh!! he is also my fb friend.But not like us .I met him during our last cultural fest.He is my good friend"
Athul is her good friend.i was shocked to here it.I thought i was the first final year to caught her.It was my foolishness to think so as sairah is a second year student.
"y silent?"she asked.
"nothing..how is ur wrk gng??"
"fine..You got a headfon??"
I saw my headphone tangled near my laptop.But it is trash as i have forgot to install sound drive for windows xp after i had formatted my laptop.I have been using linux for watching films.So sound drive for windows was no more an essential thing.The most desperate thing was that my usb modem have failed to be in compatible with linux.
"sorry Sairah i have no headset."
"Oh it is ok."
How could she manage to chat while drawing?Drawing a line..type...drawing another line ..type..May be she is using cad or some software for drawing which saves a lot of time instead of taking pencil,T square and arki stuffs to hold and manage typing.
"hey ..Sidharth...y silnt??
When chatting with some person you like more,it is hard to keep the pace of typing a constant..You will type more time to type or reply.Doesnt she know it??
I asked the cafe manager how long i had been using the internet this sunday evening.When he said five hours i felt it hard to believe that i sat there before a computer,chatting with Anamika,missing a play at the college ground.
"Can u please type faster? it is very borin to wait"Anamika's message.
I have been thinking how to ask her for a meet tomorrow morning when i recieved her message.
"oh sorry dude..k..lets stop chatn here as i want to leav the cafe..we cud meet tmrw at a coffee corner..k"I finally managed to ask.The reply was a sudden no which came from her without thinking for a chance.
"y?" i asked.
" i hav to submt my sheets tomorrow afternoon"
Damn it!!! There it goes again.When Anamika became my gf i thought that i was lucky enough about the architecture course she was doing.I found it more comfortable to got her out of the college for a one day for a date.I told about it to my friends that if they are looking for a girl then watch out someone from architecture block.But nowadays everything happened against my expectations.Anamika was busy with submissions all the time and this is the third time she rejected my willingness to meet her.Submissions...submissions...submissions...what the hell???Is there any day that architecture students get a chance to put down there pencil and scale???
Five hours at cafe..!! 100 rupees.!! And the result a "no"."I could have drunken a beer for the money i wasted here."i felt so much disappointment.And what about my assignments?I have 2 assignments to finish and submit before next 10 a.m.Without saying a bye or tc i logged out of the fb.I walked out of the cafe with a strong determination that i would go and write the assignments and as a result i brought two assignment books too.I lighted a cigarette and dragged myself to hostel.I saw Vivek and Ganesh coming out of the t.v. room in the hostel.
"Sidharth..I was about to call you..come on...let's go to KTDC and have some fun with beers."Ganesh said.
"no way ..i have two assignments to finish and after all i have only 200 rupees left in my purse."
i thought to say these words.But all that came from my mind was.."yes da...let's go"
I woke up from a series of reminiscence when my mobile rang with a loud sound through the silence of midnight.It was a missed call from Sairah.OMG..I looked at my fb chat box and surprised to see a series of message from Sairah.
"You slept??" that was the last message.
"No.." i replied trying to forget the past, hunting memories of Anamika..
(TO BE CONTINUED)